By Aaron Emerson
Christmas has always been my favorite holiday, ever since I was a little boy. The holiday spirit, the beautiful lights, the Christmas music, the time spent with family, the presents, and celebrating the birth of Jesus.
But there were several years where I wasn’t able to enjoy it. Living life addicted to heroin, there isn’t much enjoyment, to say the least. The only time an addict can enjoy life is when he or she is high, and even then there is a guilt factor attached to it. There were also a couple Christmas holidays that were spent in jail. Talk about misery.
The times that I was home for Christmas, there was always a sense of sadness surrounding my family. Even though they appeared happy, it was obvious their most desired Christmas present – my recovery – wasn’t coming down the chimney. And so I would feel horrible and figure out a way to cover up that guilt and regret, of course with more drugs.
But tonight as I sit around helping my girlfriend wrap presents, drugs are the furthest thing from my mind. It truly is a Christmas miracle – a heroin addict like me that has ruined so many holidays is now sober, happy, and enjoying time spent with family.
You know, one of my saddest memories was when I got some nice presents from my parents one Christmas morning and the next day I took them to a pawn shop and got some drugs. It was such a degrading and miserable feeling.
But now I don’t only keep my Christmas presents, I have money to buy others’ gifts. I just really wanted to share this with everyone, to let you know that God is gracious and that God can perform miracles. There are so many addicts out there that think recovery is impossible. It’s foreign to them. Sort of like how humans view Mars. We know it exists, but we don’t have the means to get there.
That used to be me. I thought if recovery was possible, happiness without drugs would never come. But I was so wrong. Somehow God gave me the courage to give it a try. Once I did that, he gave me the strength to keep it going.
So remember this story this holiday season. Jesus Christ died on the cross so people like me, people like you, can be saved. I truly hope you have an amazing Christmas, an amazing new year, and know that miracles can happen. God bless.